I believe that to really start this process of becoming a more outgoing person, I must first look inside myself. I know what you’re thinking.. doesn’t an introvert often internalize things and spend time overthinking. Well that is a generalization. I cannot say that all introverts do this, it’s really more a symptom of anxiety. And yes I do it. However, I tend to block out positive thoughts of myself. I do not spend time thinking about how I feel about certain things, what I want to accomplish in life, or what I could do better. That needs to change.
I grew up with five beautiful sisters, I am the youngest. I am also a wife to an amazing man and a mother to a beautiful boy. That is the entirety of my identity. I work as nurse, I do not identify as one though. I am a little lost in life, I do not know what career path I want to take or who I would like to become. And that scares me a little bit. I do know that I want to raise a happy child and that I would like to be closer to my family. I know that I want to be able to accomplish my goals (still figuring those out) while helping my husband and child accomplish theirs.
I know that I tend to dwell on the past. Reliving mistake after mistake. I tend to over analyze a situation and worry about the outcome. From here on out, I promise to try my best to just live in the moment. I will still use critical thinking skills (they are very important) but I will do my best to just let life happen. Sometimes plans are necessary, sometimes it is just better to roll with the punches.
This next week I am not going to make plans (outside of my work and child care schedule). I am not going to worry for days about what we will eat for dinner each night or what I will clean on each days. I am not going to obsess over what is going on with my patients while I am not at work, or what my baby is up to while I am at work. I am going to go with the flow, and let life happen.